Monday, July 28, 2014

First Area-Portland Oregon

I have to write this from my iPad thing, so if there are a ton of
errors that is why and I apologize in advance.
Well this first week has been.....interesting. My trainer is Sister
LeBaron. She is a cute red head from Hurricane Utah. She is amazing,
yes I have pictures, but they are on my camera, so I can't send them.
But don't worry, I will find a way!!

My first area: Portland Oregon, East Stake, Rocky Butte Ward.
Honestly I feel like I am in the ghetto. Everyone looks the same. Not
to be rude or judgmental, but they all have baggy clothes, they just
look miserable and unhappy. A lot of people seem grouchy.  They homes
are small and kinda gross looking, there are some reeeeeaaally weird
smells here. And it doesn't help that mold is like a thing here. But
yes, it is very pretty here.

My first day tracting, we were in Vancouver, with some other sisters,
I was with Sister Blanch. She is incredible and we just clicked
immediately so she was like I hope we are companions!! Haha I hope so
too. Anyway I went out with her first and she just kept saying how
impressed she was with me.  She was like “ok I will just ease you into
it and then we can go from there.” I let her take the first door just
to see what to say and all that. Then the next door I was like “I got
it.”  and she was like ummmmm ok.. Ahahah I knocked and someone
answered, I just started talking and testified of Christ and the Book
of Mormon, I asked her if she had read it and here belief in God,
anyway, I gave my first Book of Mormon away to her. And Sister Blanch
was like holy.  Crap.. Hahahahaha she was like you are fearless!!
Hahaha that wasn't my area so I don't know if any of these people have
contActed them, but Sister Blanch kept calling me her little miracle.
Hahaha way too funny.  I love her a ton, and she taught me a lot of
good things about talking to people.

We stayed at the mission home that night. Super nice. It was
bittersweet though, we knew we would be saying goodbye soon.
President and Sister Taylor though are awesome. Oh man. Guess what.
The next day at breakfast Sister Taylor had the Perfect thing for me
to eat. I swear it was inspiration hahah. So I loooove Greek yogurt.
Well Sister Taylor had Greek yogurt and fresh berries, aaaaand semi
sweet chocolate chips. Umm hello, let's just be best friends!!! Hahaha
she was like I have never put the chocolate chips in it!! She tried it
and like it. It is way good. Go try it. You're welcome in advance

Saturday was sketchy. We tracted a scary neighborhood and everyone was
so rude. We got the doors slammed, cussed at, we had one lady follow us
down the street to our car, and she was totally crazy.  Maybe high too
but anyway..she went on about how she is just like Christ, and how she
was raised from the dead,  and how she is the minister for the
neighborhood.  She told us that we dress badly and we should take our
tags off because we are judging people and stuff... Anyway she used
some pretty colorful language to tell us about ourselves. Craaaaazy.
She is a weirdo. Ahahah.

We live in an apartment, it smells like cigarettes, but we cleaned it
and the land lords did a lot too so it doesn't smell too bad now.
Not gonna lie, my biggest struggle so far has been fear.  The first
night at the apartment I freaked myself out. I just felt that
something bad was there. So I told my companion and she was like “I'm
glad you said something.”  We said a prayer together and went to bed.  I
slept really good. Then on Saturday after everything, we were going to
bed and I just felt so icky. It was bad and I was terrified.  To just
even move.  I did not sleep at all. I prayed literally constantly that
night.  Then Sister LeBaron tells her life story with that sort of
stuff, she has had some really scary experiences.  She told me she
felt there was something there but it wasn't hostile. So I'm like yeah
thanks! Anyway, I found that the more I dwell on it the worse it is. If
I let it scare me, it has more power. Well great.  Anyway, it comes
and goes, and I shall conquer. We told our elders though, and they
helped out a ton. They gave us some instruction, and they call us
every night before we go to bed just to check on us. But it has gotten
better. So sorry for scaring the crap out of you mom, but it is fine.
Hahaha. Satan is real, and I never really under stood his power, I
know he is evil, but we most of the time see him as just he tempts us
by putting thoughts into your head. Um. No. He Is down right evil, and
he can manifest that when he wants. However, he is also a whiny snot,
so don't let him but ya too much. He has power to bruise our heel but
we have power to CRUSH his head.  Fear is his tool,  get rid of your
fear, replace it with faith and trust in The Lord, and Satan has no

We are teaching some great people, I'm still trying to get to know
everyone, and remember their situations. One of our investigators has
a pet squirrel. Yea. Awesome. I guess they found it in bad shape when
it was a baby and nursed it back to health, and they got the shots and
everything for it and got it registered. So it is legal. I got to pet
it. Sister LeBaron has a pic I will try to send you sometime.  It was

 I had dinner with the Smith family, they are a cute older couple in my
ward here, their home smelled JUST like Gran and Pa's and it made me
sad. She fed us a friggen feast though. Oh man I probably gained like
100 pounds already! Hahah

The neighborhood here just seems messed up. Like there isn't
organization. Everything looks the same the roads have weird
intersections, and little street signs, luckily sister LeBaron has a
gps and so we get around ok.  Plus things are just buried in trees.
My first day tracting with Sister Blanch, we drove to this one area, I
don't know what it was, but on the way these it was literally like
driving through a thick forest. But with housed dotted here and there.
Very pretty. It is humid here. But not too bad. You feel sticky by the
end of the day and that is pretty gross..  It is pretty nice as far as
heat. It does get pretty hot, but it is nice. My first 2 days here it
rained. It would drizzle and then it would just be dark and gloomy,
then it would pour, then the sun would poke out and then it would the rain here is pretty bipolar, but other than that, the
weather is nice.

It is weird being in a different ward. I don't like being in the
family ward. I miss my YSA ward so friggen much.  The ward here I
guess has issues. We met a man yesterday, a very sweet guy from
England, he is less active, and told us how he just feels ignored and
unwelcome. I just felt so bad for him, he said even the bishop doesn't
call him or return his calls. And no one talks to him, and when he
does come to church he sits alone.  He said he just has a ton of
questions and he doesn't want to discuss it because he thinks they are
destructive questions to one’s faith. He questions Joseph smith and the
plates and things like that. We offered many times to sit with him and
discuss the questions he has and he finally accepted. He said they are
silly and not important. And I told him that we are not perfect
teachers, nor do we know everything, but we will try our very best to
help him find answers, and that if it was important to him, the. It
was important to Heavenly Father. And he just seemed to kind of light
up, and then he was like yeeaah! So we asked him to write his
questions down and he is gonna give us a call. He would not give us
his number, but he was like I will call I promise. So I am really
looking forward to hearing from him and teaching him.

Mom, I need my insurance card.  I know it is still in my gold wallet,
but I don't remember where I left it. I will send my address too but I
have to look it up.  You can only send packages to the mission office,
and letters to my apartment, or you can send it all to the mission

Apartment address
9923 NE Prescott street #17
Portland, OR

Thank you all for writing me, it means a lot to hear from home.
Miss you lots, love you dearly!
Sister Morgan

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Safe Arrival

Dear Missionary Family,

We are delighted to inform you that your missionary has arrived safely to the Washington Vancouver Mission.  We already love them and are excited to serve with them.  We have enjoyed becoming acquainted with them and are confident that they will become an effective instrument in the hands of the Lord in sharing the gospel with the people of Washington and Oregon.

We have assigned them a companion who is an experienced, devoted, and motivated missionary.  All of our missionaries understand that one of the greatest privileges available in the mission is to train a new missionary.  This first companion will be a special person to your missionary’s life and will help give them a great start here.

We feel that our greatest responsibility is the care and welfare of your child.  We want to assure you that we will be in close contact with them.  We will be observant of their physical health, happiness, and spiritual well being.  We will work closely with them throughout the mission to help them succeed and fulfill their calling as a representative of the Church and as an ambassador of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Please be assured that we will be in contact with you if we ever encounter any concerns that would call for your attention.  We see you as a great asset to the success of your child while serving in the mission field and will work closely with you if the need arises.

Attached are photographs of your missionary taken with us at the welcome dinner at the mission home and information to help answer some questions you may have.   Please feel free to contact us at the mission office if you have any other questions.

Thank you for the sacrifices you are making at home to have your missionary in the field.  We have seen the Lord bless the families of missionaries who are serving in untold ways.  We know that his blessing will be upon you as well.

With love,

President and Sister Taylor
Washington Vancouver Mission
2223 NW 99th St
Vancouver, WA 98665
Office: 360-574-5370

Monday, July 21, 2014

Fly out Tomorrow!!!

Hello everyone!

Holy..tomorrow I will be in Washington.  Crazy!! It is weird to think too that in just like a week and a half..I will have been gone a month. whoa.

These past few days have been a struggle. I really have a problem with over thinking everything and making things so much harder than they really are, but that has led to some cool experiences.  i for some reason really struggled with 'faith in Jesus Christ'  and how the commandments tie into that. dumb right? I know. I had to teach it to my companion, and she was asking all these questions about what I said so I got all confused and then didn't get it.  I studied and studied, and then the next day I was sitting in my class. I said a prayer and opened up to the same chaper. Alma 32.  I read it, just read it.  and all the sudden it was like ah ha! hahah so dumb!! but the spirit was so strong and I could just feel it teaching me. it all makes sense now.

We taugh a man named Dominic, he was our TRC investigator. he is Italian, Roman Catholic, and he is 71 yrs. old. he looks younger though. anyway. he intimidated the crud out of me at first because he made me feel SOOO stupid the first time we saw him. he talks a ton and asks a TON of questions. that is fun though, we taught him what it means to be blessed. then I invited him to be baptized..he said no. haha and I was like well..that was awkward hahaha!! but later he was like I should not have said that, I know what I need to do. anyway. our last visit was on Saturday, he asked more questions and we were out of time so we all shared our testimonies, and cried our eyes out, and said goodbye. that was hard. It was reallllly hard. I hate goodbyes.

Then earlier this week, Sister  Bingham, she was in our zone, she is going to Australia, and her flight got canceled, so she was with us.  she left today. Pretty sad. I love her so much.  Then tomorrow I will have to do it all over again.

Then we had our last day Saturday with brother Metcalf.  That was sad too. and today we have to say goodbye to brother Sorensen.  I LOVED my teachers. SO MUCH. 

I feel like the Lord DOES have a sense of humor...but sometimes I'm like NOT funny, Lord...NOT funny.  I asked for humility, and he gave it to me.  oh man did he give it to me.  I just feel like this week, I realize how much nothing we are. How much I really DON'T know and the confidence and strength I DON'T have. I truly have to rely on him.  and even that for me is hard.  I feel like I am really struggling focusing on my mission. I have all these other thoughts in my mind. I hate it. I'm trying so hard and I just feel like there is no success. But i've only cried myself to sleep or while in the shower like 3 times.. so go me.  hahahahahahah!!!!  

One thing that is great that I would really like to share:  in 1 Ne 21:14-16, you will have to read it.. The Atonement is very personal to me, I learned it/gained a testimony of it in a very personal way.  Do we ever think of how personal it is to the Lord? Like it says a mother would not leave her child. The Lord won't leave us. "Behold, I have thee graven in the palms of my hands" He will NEVER forget us, ever.  In the words of sister De Leon "Heavenly Father will never leave us, we leave him"  Don't EVER leave him. ever.  It is hard to trust him sometimes, but we are his children, he truly wants what is best for us, he knows us, he knows what is best and how to help. Don't leave him.  

Happy Birthday Gran!!! Love you!

I don't know what time I will be calling at.  I think my flight is at 8:46 or something. I will be up at 3:30 and at the travel office at 4:30am. yay. but I think it should be around 7:30ish maybe. not sure. I will call dad's phone.

On Friday we had 9 1/2 hours of in-field orientation, it was good, but way long. It made me a little more nervous for the actual field, but it will be fine.  

It is really hard having home so close. I could literally walk to gran and pa's in like 5 min.  Bust outta here! hahahah. So for that reason I can't wait to get out of Utah.

you know the electric things? the big pin wheel ones right before Spanish Fork canyon? yeah well guess what..I could see those from a window by my classroom and was like awwww :-( sadness. that is the way we go to the cabin! I didn't realize how close it is haha

I think that is it for now, I am pretty much packed and ready to go. just a few last minute things. I will talk to you (mom and dad) tomorrow, Love you all.

Friday, July 18, 2014


Monday July 14--Day 6!
Oh Hey,
So today has been interesting.  Sister Singleton vented to me today.  She is struggling with her companion.  Then earlier, I bawled to Sister De Leon and she said she was feeling the same way I was.  It has been a good day, but it finished hard.  Today was Good-Bye to Elder Ping and Huges.  It was sad and they have been so kind and awesome.  Elder Hughes calls me "Sister Barrymore".  HA! I told him I get that all the time and he was like "you will probably get a lot of investigators looking like that" and I was like "uh...thanks but you probably shouldn't say that?'  He was like "I wasn't trying to be that way, sorry!"  It was totally awkward.
    What did I learn today? I will tell you communicating is key.  We got a lot of frustration out.  But are we still friends?
    Alss, I find I pray a lot for things but I don't ACT.  If you want patience, you have to practice patience.  You want to be kind, you have to practice kindness.  Anything you want to be or develop, you have to practice.  You can't ask Heavenly Father for help and you then sit on your butt. I have always known that, but all of the sudden the light bulb went off.  So each week I'm going to focus on one quality I want to develop, and work on it. What are your goals?

Letter to Mom:
Thanks for much for the packages.  Things were really hard today, but it is almost bed time and tomorrow is a new day.  Even if you drive by the MTC you wouldn't see us because they kep us locked inside all day.  John called it a Spirit Prison.  I'm starting to agree.
     Thank you for writing me.  It is fun to get notes.  Thanks for the stickers too!
I love you, It is days like this I regret being here and just want to come home.  But that is a bad attitude.  The Lord is good at showing you where you SUCK!  But He is good at magnifying your strengths.  We pray for strength to endure, never ask the Lord to take away your trials, he is preping you, teaching you, so he won't take it away, but he will give you strength to endure, to help you through it.  He won't do it for us, but he will walk with us.

Letter to Dad:
Today has been rough.  We got to meet/teach our first TRC (training resource center) investigator.  Scared me to death.  W didn't even teach him anything, but what we were suppose to teach him was faith in Jesus Christ. Earlier in class I skimmed it in Preach My Gospel and had to teach it to my companion.  I said one thing and she just bust out with all these questions, she made some good points, but now, something I felt I knew seems so unfamiliar to me and my confidence went down the drain.  I feel like Sister De Leon was pushing ME to teach it and I kept telling her I didn't know how, what the heck do I say?  So we got in there and he talked the entire time, but at the end I asked him to read Alma 32 and his response just seemed condescending and I felt SO stupid.  He is a Roman Catholic and I feel like he is one that will argue or whatever and now I feel like I don't want to go back.  And Sister De Leon is like "Oh! I love him...blah, blah, blah" and I'm like "No", but I feel like I want to back out just because it is hard and I'm scared and that 's not a good excuse to quit, even if I could.  I'm absolutely terrified.  I have to teach hime again tomorrow. YAH!
    Plus on top of that, I am now in a trio.  Sister Bingham, her companion had to go home for medical reasons and she was suppose to leave today but her flight got canceled.  So it just kinda threw everything off.
     I think all the Sisters here are stressed and frustrated.  And we all know it but we don't want to talk. I feel like today is just like "ok, take me home now. Thanks".

Monday, July 14, 2014

Letter to Mom

OH!! Ma, I am thinking about all these things I am forgetting to tell you. So my teacher are Bro. Metcalf and Sorensen. They. are. the BOMB. I love them so much, they keep class light and fun, but the spirit is always crazy strong. you feel like your entire body is on fire hahaha. it is so great. CRAP!!! I WANT TO SEND YOU PICTURES. I HATE THIS COMPUTER!! hahahaahah. one day!! I will ask some other people and see if they had any luck with pics. the food here is so freakin good. and it is like all you can eat, HOWEVER..I have been kinda good with eating healthy haha sometimes they have burgers and stuff and I'm like aww heck yeah! hahaha but they have way good food. Sleeping is still hard. it takes me forever to fall asleep and then last night, these girls were being freakin loud AFTER LIGHTS OUT TIME (10:30) and i was like I'm gonna go bust their door down, tell sister de leon to unleash 'hood losa' (Losa is her first name) and we gonna kick some booty.  Oh my heck.  I miss you too, but lets not think to much on that!! hehehe.  Tell mister I miss him lots, and I hate not being able to tease anyone. I mean I can tease the sisters's just not the same hahahahahah.  We get 1 hr. of email time on monday.  My branch Pres. is President Brown, he is pretty cool but also kind of scary hahaha but he cries a ton which makes me feel better, even though I feel like emotions have been easier to control here. THANK THE LORD.  Oh my.   hahah and Sister Singleton has the funniest phrases. she will say "Good Night almighty!!" when she is surprised at something, she is just so funny, so is Sister De Leon, they are just so witty and quick to think on their feet with that stuff and they just make me laugh so hard. I have a video of us being stupid before bed..Sis. Singleton was making weird noises and I told her to do it again but she couldn't because we were all laughing so hard hehe she told me not to send it to you, but she doesn't have to know that I'm gonna..whoooppsss!! there it is!!! shhhh…our secret.  How is sister Leeesha? did Joe go to church? andAnna? how was the Scottish Fest? WHERE BE MY CAKES OF WELSH?!?!?! heheheh just kidding, if she didn't get any or was tempted to eat them that is cool.

I miss my kitty. kitty. Mom how many of my letters have you gotten, I have sent you like 20 hahaha   Oh shnikes!! how do you spell that?? This too, I have a calling here. I was like what the? no no....I am a full time missionary.. That IS my calling yo, what up. What is this? so I am the gosh dang Online Coordinator, which really is fine I just didn't know we got callings hahahahah.  So I get to train the newbies, we are kind of excited for them to come in. HA they get to wear the stupid dork dot. hehehe. I'm so mad I can't send you pics. Anyway.  Funny story before I go, I only have a minute or so. but last night Sister Singleton was talking in her sleep and I guess Sister De Leon heard it too so when we woke up Sister De Leon was like "girl you were talking in your sleep last night and I was talking back to you, and it was funny because you would not respond, and so I was like Oh daaang, she just be trippin!!" hahahahahahahahhahaha SOOO funny. Oh my heck. I love you. I have to go. Love ya!!